I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. I know that I am where I am in life because of the path that I took to get here. Not everything on that path was easy or fun but all of it brought me forward, all of it put me in this place, at this exact moment.
My husband and I have been trying to adopt from the foster system for almost four years now. It has been the most difficult, painful, wonderful, inspiring event we have been through in our entire 17 years together. We have grown in so many ways, as a couple and individually. Each aspect of the path has taught me something new, each aspect has brought me forward.
We received an invitation to an adoption staffing last Monday. It was the first staffing that we had been asked to attend that actually happened. We were nervous beyond belief and could think of almost nothing else. The staffing went great. I'm the type of person that will over-analyze a conversation with my mother, much less a conversation of this importance, but, in this, there was no over-analyzing. I am fully confident that we did the best we could, that we answered questions honestly and were true to ourselves. There was nothing we could have done better.
We weren't chosen. The surprising part was how okay with it we were. I know, deep in my heart, that everything happens for a reason. Those children were meant to be with other parents, they were meant to follow a separate path from us. On this same day we received an invitation to another adoption staffing in June. I can't help but think that this was a sign from the Universe, a sign that this wasn't our only chance.
A sign that there is a child, or children, out there who are meant to walk the same path as us. The image above is the view from the hotel we stayed at before the staffing interview. The tree is just blooming for spring. New life and a new beginning. I believe our new beginning is getting closer and our path will merge with another for a new life for all of us.